Apparently more snow is forecasted for this week, and I am getting tired of it. The complex is running out of places to put it, I’m getting tired of shoveling it, driving in it, and even looking at it. It’s sad, because if this were 10 years ago, even at 17 I would find this to be the best motherfucking day of my life, go sledding, make forts and tunnels, everything. It’s not so much fun when you are an adult. =/
Lately all I have been doing is reading this book about Support Management. I really need to put work-related shit down when not at work. Last night at dinner I was talking about a few things and after a few minutes I realized, why the fuck am I talking about this? Everyone else I work with probably puts their shit down and walks away from it for 48 hours and I’m still thinking about things to do. Ashlynn’s response was that I see this as a career and not just a job, that I want to put work into it to make it succeed and move up. She is right, but there are times where I want to just turn off my email, phone, IM, whatever and just spend a weekend doing nothing. I’ve managed to do that somewhat this weekend, but fuck casual conversation starters.
Lately my motivation to do just about anything besides internets has been shitty. I dunno if it’s just winter hibernation feeling or just that I can’t find anything to do outside of the apartment on the weekends that doesn’t involve spending money. Inside the apartment there are all sorts of cleaning things that should be done, but I am entirely too unmotivated to do such things, except keeping the kitchen mostly clean, which I can live with really. We only really do major cleaning when we have a party or something.
Still procrastinating on the therapist thing, I don’t know why. I guess most of the reason falls along the lines of anything that involves doctors and such, I only go when I find the absolute need to. I know if I just went and did it, I’d be fine about it afterwards, but that initial process is what gets me. My life, much like my job, is massively disorganized, which is a problem because I tend to be a pretty organized person, except when there are too many open tasks and things to be done, I just kinda shut down and sit here online the whole day. They say if you make a list of tasks and do the ones that will take the shortest time you can better organize shit, but I can’t even make it to the list.
Ah well. I lack bread or tortilla wraps to use for lunch, so I’m going to have to go to the store. Works out, I need gas and I have gas points to S&S burning a hole in my wallet. ~2.90/gal? Habbeb it.